Heads Down, Thumbs Up (Heartbroken)

Heads down, Thumbs Up

(Heartbroken) 

Am I just a joke to you?

Is that all this really is?

The friends I have are few,

So it’s so nice to see my pain as your bliss

So sit there and laugh,

It’s not like you care…

To you, I’m the sacrificial calf,

Your personal burden to bear,

That’s all I am,

And that’s all I’ll ever be…

Why did I believe this sham?

Why couldn’t I ever see?

The truth, the lies,

The useless alibies,

So here I sit, alone, cold, and emotions hidden,

With a smile to hide my true emotion: “pain-ridden”

And never again shall I believe

This childish fantasy:

“Us”

-The Illusive Writer